Molested in Kindergarten

When I was five years old, I was repeatedly molested by another student at my school. I am in my twenties now, and these memories have slowly been returning over time. Although many aspects of the time are hazy, I can still remember vividly the sensation of his hands on me. He would corner me and get me alone so he could force his hands under my clothing and underwear, groping me for several minutes at a time. If I resisted, he would hurt me by pinching, kicking, etc. There was at least one other boy involved who would help in cornering me. I was five and didn't understand the extent of what was going on but felt so shameful about it. At one point I mustered the courage to tell my mom who screamed and then never mentioned it again. Since I was five, I have suffered anxiety, depression, suicidal ideation, an eating disorder, psychogenic non-epileptic seizures, night terrors, and an autoimmune disorder with symptoms like alopecia, rashes, and weight loss. I do not know to what extent these health issues have been a consequence of my assault as I have only just come to terms with what happened. I have long considered myself asexual, but starting a serious relationship has had me re-grappling my sexuality and fears of intimacy. I am so ready to heal but also feel so afraid. I can't imagine life without this fear and shame.