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title: 私は、10歳くらいから始まり15歳でひどくなった幼少期の性的虐待の被害者です。合意の上での性行為はしたことがなく、ト... ~ Our Wave コミュニティ
description: まず最初に言いたいのは、あなたは気持ち悪い人間ではないし、あなたに非はない、そしてあなたの反応は被害者の間では実によくあることだということです。あなたが経験していること、つまり恐怖と欲望の混ざり合った感情、侵入的な思考、羞恥心、さらにはトラウマ関連の興奮は、性的虐待に対するよく知られた反応です。多くの被害者がまさに...
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# 私は、10歳くらいから始まり15歳でひどくなった幼少期の性的虐待の被害者です。合意の上での性行為はしたことがなく、トラウマに関する侵入的な思考や空想に悩まされています。それが私にとって性的興奮を引き起こす唯一のものであり、激しい羞恥心で満たされ、自分に何らかの責任があるのではないかと疑問に思います。自慰に執着している自分に気づき、同時に現実世界の親密さを恐れています。性的関係を切望すると同時に恐れています。被害者にとって、このような矛盾した感情は正常なのでしょうか。セックスを恐れさせるのと同じトラウマが、セックスを欲するようにさせるのはなぜでしょうか。とても気持ちが悪いです。

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トピックス:[トラウマ後の人間関係の修復](/ja/learn/topics/navigating-relationships-after-trauma)

まず最初に言いたいのは、あなたは気持ち悪い人間ではないし、あなたに非はない、そしてあなたの反応は被害者の間では実によくあることだということです。あなたが経験していること、つまり恐怖と欲望の混ざり合った感情、侵入的な思考、羞恥心、さらにはトラウマ関連の興奮は、性的虐待に対するよく知られた反応です。多くの被害者がまさに同じ感情に苦しんでいます。これはあなたに何か問題があるからでも、あなたが虐待を望んでいたからでもありません。これは、あなたの脳と体が重要な発達期に複雑なトラウマを処理せざるを得なかったために起こっているのです。

トラウマと性的興奮のつながりは、トラウマ的な状況でも私たちの体が性的刺激に物理的に反応できるため発生します。これは純粋に生理的な反応であり、あなたが虐待を望んでいた、または虐待の責任があるということではありません。くすぐられるのが嫌いでもくすぐられると笑う人がいるのと同じように、体はトラウマ的な状況でも性的接触に反応することができます。これらの経験と興奮の間につながりが形成されたのも、単にこれが形成期における性的感情への最初の露出だったからかもしれません。

親密さへの恐怖と渇望が同時に起こることも、非常によくあることです。あなたの一部は、健全なつながりと親密さ（通常の人間の欲求）を自然に望んでいますが、別の部分は、あなたをさらなる危害から守ろうとしています。これらは矛盾しているわけではなく、どちらもトラウマに対する正当な反応です。

もしこれが苦痛の原因となっているなら、性的虐待からの回復を専門とするトラウマ・インフォームド・セラピストと一緒に取り組むことを検討してみてはいかがでしょうか。セラピストは、あなたが自分のペースでこれらの感情を処理できる安全な環境を提供してくれます。急ぐ必要はありません。回復には時間がかかります。準備が整う前に性的関係に飛び込むプレッシャーを受けることなく、徐々に前進するスペースがあなたには必要です。多くの被害者は、サポートグループとつながり、本当に理解してくれる人たちと経験を共有できることが、非常に役立つと感じています。これらの経験は自分だけのものではないと聞けば、共有している恥や孤独感を和らげることができます。

あなたはすでに、手を差し伸べてこれらの質問をすることで、信じられないほどの強さを示しています。それには勇気が必要です。サポートと時間があれば、多くの被害者は健康で充実した親密な関係を築き、性的関係をより平和にすることができます。あなたもそれに値するし、それは可能です。私たちに手を差し伸べてくれてありがとう。自分に辛抱強くいてください。あなたは一人ではありません。

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Nicaragua\]Nicaragua](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=ni)[\[Image: New Zealand\]New Zealand](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=nz)[\[Image: Panama\]Panama](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=pa)[\[Image: Paraguay\]Paraguay](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=py)[\[Image: Peru\]Peru](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=pe)[\[Image: Puerto Rico\]Puerto Rico](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=pr)[\[Image: Spain\]Spain](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=es)[\[Image: United Kingdom\]United Kingdom](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=gb)[\[Image: Uruguay\]Uruguay](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=uy)[\[Image: Venezuela\]Venezuela](/ja/answer/im-a-survivor-of-childhood-sexual-abuse-that-started-around-age-10-and-intensified-at-15-ive-never-had-consensual-sex-and-i-struggle-with-intrusive-thoughts-and-fantasies-about-my-trauma-its-the-only-thing-that-triggers-arousal-for-me-which-fills-me-with-intense-shame-and-makes-me-question-whether-i-was-somehow-responsible-i-find-myself-obsessing-over-masturbation-while-simultaneously-being-terrified-of-real-world-intimacy-i-both-crave-and-fear-sexual-relationships-are-these-conflicting-feelings-normal-for-survivors-why-does-the-same-trauma-that-makes-me-afraid-of-sex-also-make-me-want-it-i-feel-so-disgusting-359?country=ve)

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