--- title: #2007 ~ Our Wave Community description: I don't know how in detail I can go here because I do not want to pursue legal action for anything. I truly do not know how bad everything was and how much is... url: https://api.ourwave.org/en/story/aafe1105-a76c-491b-adfa-6394ad584965-2007.md --- {{customAnalyticsScripts}} [\[Image: Our Wave Logo\]\[Image: Our Wave Logo\]](/en/) [ Community ](/en/)[ Questions & Answers ](/en/learn)[ Find Support ](/en/resources) Share story Post a message 0 Users 0 Views 0 Reactions 0 Stories read ##### Need to take a break? 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Send it to us 🇺🇸 ###### Survivor story # #2007 Original story ##### Message of Healing I want to forgive and move on because I don't want it weighing on me the rest of my life but I don't know how to forgive these people. I want to stop having nightmares. I want to stop feeling bad for going back to those places. I want to feel free again and not feel disgusting. I don't know how in detail I can go here because I do not want to pursue legal action for anything. I truly do not know how bad everything was and how much is gaps in my memory, I only know that he hurt my dog in front of me and yelled at me and cursed at me and called me things at such a young age that I couldn't understand. I was a defiant child and I learned to be sexually exploratory at a very young age due to not understanding what was happening. I just knew I was forced to hug others without clothes on and that I was pinned down upon occasion for money incentives when I was really young and that I was touched by someone for something necessary and medial but that the wrong person did it to me and got carried away and made it about more than the medicine. I learned to be okay with it in my relationships as well and my first one was very weird, I was forced to act ways I did not want to and forced to go on dates or else the person would threaten to hurt themselves. I am in a healthy relationship now though. I don't really know how to describe what has happened to me because I don't think I have been raped per se but I feel like I have been taken advantage of my whole life. Random Story [ 1 Comment(s) Comment(s) ](/en/story/aafe1105-a76c-491b-adfa-6394ad584965-2007#comments) - Report ### Discard message? You have a comment in progress, are you sure you want to discard it? 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